Ever had one of those days when, for some reason, everything just seems to annoy you. I mean everything. The sun is too bright. You hit every red light. Your hot lunch gets cold. Your phone rings too often. You get phone hang ups. You get everyone asking for something and there just aren’t enough hours in the day. Worst of all, every question that anyone asks you just seems irrelevant (basically stupid). Well, my day started like that and I was getting really angry and I had no idea why?
I slept wonderfully. Last night I was baking banana bran muffins and blueberry muffins and they turned out fantastic. So good and moist. A miracle really! I woke up well rested because I slept with the window open and there had been a nice, cool breeze. No humidity whatsoever. I had wonderful, happy dreams too. Just super! I had pre-made my breakfast the day before, so no need to rush to scarf down food before work. I even had all green lights driving in. Got to work seven minutes early. So why oh why, was I feeling so agitated?
My phone was ringing and, really, it’s my job to pleasantly answer it, but I felt like everyone calling today was just calling to irk me. I had two hang ups within 20 minutes. I had two from non-existent people…they said, not a word. People coming to the office were looking for people who were either on holidays or on lunch, and they felt like hanging around and chit-chatting. Grrrrrrrr…I was NOT in a chit-chat mood! What the heck was my problem today?
I decided to Google my question: “Why am I angry today? Well, it seems that many, many, many people have searched this question before. There are links to numerous websites that are really just dedicated to anger management.
I checked out a few of them. Some explained that I was suffering from depression. That was more for the “you wake up and feel angry all day, everyday” people. Mine was just one angry morning. Most had various forms of this advice: feel your anger and then let it go. That sounded silly….so I decided to try it. I cursed (inwardly) and asked myself why I was angry and since there didn’t seem to be a good answer, I dropped it…like a hot potato (good advice I found on Tiny Buddha). Anyway, I oftentimes find that when I am frustrated I just let the powers that be take over for me and I will receive my answer in one strange way or another. Today it was via Google. Sounds crazy, but not as crazy as being stuck in a funk for no apparent reason.
The most interesting thing was that, after I had dropped it, I did feel better. Suddenly I remembered all the good things about today. The sun was shining, brightly, and beautifully. I remembered that my drive in to work was beyond fantastic. It was like all the cars had moved out of my way to let me get through those green lights. My breakfast was delicious, and eaten without interruption, so I got to enjoy a nice, hot meal. Even lunch was great. I had volatile spaghetti. (Volatile because I usually end up with spaghetti splatter somewhere on my person.) Yet, today, not even a speck of red and I was wearing a white sweater! Miracle? Maybe. Changing my attitude actually changed everything around me (or maybe just my perception of it) but same happy result.
Oddly, the phone ended up ringing less and the callers were legit…no more hangups. The favour asking, for some reason, had dissipated. I was having a happy, feel good day. I will have to remember the Hot Potato of Anger trick next time I’m ready to lose my mind and freak out on some unsuspecting soul asking for a favour.
Either that or my favourite backup plan. I read the children’s book Alexander, and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. (Maybe I’ll move to Australia.)