Life is great! I am happy! Cough…Happy! Cough cough! What the heck is going on? Hmmm, there is a wee tickle in my throat. Ahem, ahem…cough cough. HACK-COUGH! My nose is itchy. What is this? There is leakage from my nasal passages. Grab a facial tissue and blow my nose. Blow again. One more time! Phew! Think I got it all. Great! Wait a minute. I can’t hear anymore. What is going on? I don’t have a fever or anything. What new strain of evilness is this? Yes, it appears I have a cold. If it is so normal then why do I feel so AB-normal?
I have become a transmogrified evil villain! I am usually the upbeat “Pollyanna” type rooting for everything good in the world! “You can do this!” I exclaim. “Live in denial!” I yell to myself. This self-lie usually works to trick my body into thinking that I am not ill. It’s not real. I can get past this. Yet, here I am on day 9 (yes day 9) and I have managed to get hearing back in one ear. The Super Cough has diminished to a mere whisper of its previous potency. My bruised ribs have finally stopped screaming at me so I guess I actually did not crack any ribs in cough-a-lot episodes. My sinuses…oh my…those beauties made my eyes look like fish eyes…all bulgy and watery. Why am I describing my ailments? I believe it is vitally important to share information that might make others feel better about their life situation, knowing that there are “others” like them.
To be honest, the reason I bring up my gross illness is because I have become a horrible human being. I have become an uber, ugly, vindictive “reality show” type personality on the person I love.
When you get sick as a parent, you are not allowed to show weakness. You are the doctor. You are the nurse. You are the most patient and understanding person in their lives. When they say their teardrop hurts their cheek, it’s a reality you need to remedy to make them sleep. However, when the children are out of the house and you become ill, you finally get to plead illness (and insanity). Who gets the brunt of your illness woes? Your bestie! The person who will always be there for you through thick and thin. It’s true right?
Think about it. Wiseguy told me right from the beginning that one crucial element of a good relationship is: COMMUNICATION! For those of you who do not understand what that means, I shall simplify. If there is something that is bothering you and you are holding it inside instead of talking about it, that means you are NOT communicating. This would be a perfect example of my parent’s household.
In my parents house if you were upset, you held it in because there was no point in discussing issues. Parents were always right. Siblings? No talk…more about actions and getting even (bwahaha!). So, now I had to learn this “talk” thing.
For those of you who were taught manners and behaving properly and “be sure not to offend anyone” this was a difficult task. After several years I got the hang of it. It’s not about yelling and picking on each other, it’s actually discussing things, in adult words, no F-bombs. It’s sharing thoughts, ideas, opinions. It really does work. Well, it works while you are both of sound mind. When one gets sick, sense and sensibility gets thrown out and the evil “sick” monster takes over.
As previously mentioned, I have been the caretaker for many. If I did get ill (i.e.”West Nile Virus), I still had my father-on-law come to me whilst I was lying on the couch and ask me: “What’s for dinner?” Yes, it’s true. When children get sick, parents don’t get timeouts. It doesn’t matter how tired you are, the children are most important and one day you hope you will have time to sleep. So, here I am, 20 years later, sick myself, and I am incorrigible.
I have been apologizing to Wiseguy on an almost hourly basis! Why? Because I am yelling at him for not speaking loudly enough for me to hear him. My ears are plugged. When my one ear canal finally opened up I complained that he was talking too loudly. Even better… he now has whatever ailment I have and I am complaining when he can’t hear me! I am agitated. I am irritated! I can’t hear properly. I keep throwing verbal darts at Wiseguy. He can do nothing right. He made me a beautiful breakfast and I complained about the pan he used. Cruel!? For sure!
So, this little story is two-fold:
To Cold Sufferers: You are not in your normal state of mind. When you find that you are going crazy and verbally assaulting those you love, remember to apologize for being an intolerable pain.
To my hubby: You are the best! You should get hazard pay for dealing with my psycho-sicko mood swings. I’m here for you. (I hear you coughing right now. Thanks for letting me share my unhealthy goodness with you! Bwahaha!)
P.S. Although I am of the elder-world, I find that many children’s books can simply explain life’s difficulties. As adults we find “big words” to explain our life situations. Over the past few days, in my whiny state of mind, I thought about how “horrible” I felt and recalled one of my all time favourite stories. It made me laugh out loud (nowadays known as LOL): Alexander and the Horrible, Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Day.
Do you have a favourite storybook? If so, what is so special about it?